of yellow hats and rose-colored spectacles

too cute eh? (photo credits go to google images again). these pictures literally depict yellow hats and rose-colored spectacles. as i have unreliable taste in fashion and an utter lack of fashion sense, you should stop reading right away. but then if you decide to read on, you're in for something else--a dose of a wanderer's rambling--a lesser evil compared with seeing me wearing the two pieces together, hehe :)

although these two have technical meanings, ie, the yellow hat which is one of de Bono's six thinking hats and the common expression, "looking at things through rose-colored glasses", they are my personal symbols of happy thoughts and healthy optimism.

when you have just turned 26 some days ago, and you're one of those self-proclaimed "i'm in a an extended quarter-life crisis" drama queen, visual reminders of positive thoughts are as helpful as your comfort food, minus the calories. (the extended quarterlife crisis seems to point at an increased life expectancy too, aack! but that is a completely different story)

nobody is spared from experiencing difficult and trying times, we all go through rough patches along our respective journeys. it sounds cliche but each of us had a bite of this bitter truth when Asian countries were hit one calamity after another just weeks ago. i also witnessed the truth in this when i hear of the problems other people go through.

speaking of other people's concerns, i have a little secret to share, i subscribe to a daily prayer request where i receive emails of prayers from other people. i came across the site when i was desperately seeking help in praying for myself and my loved ones so i initially posted my own prayer. i believed praying with other believers is stronger than praying alone. the more the manier :p hehe. whether or not we admit it, we all could use help from other people praying for us. i thought it was good to also pray for others for a change. we are happy when our prayers are answered, but believe me, it;s a different high when someone you prayed for gets his/her prayer answered.

so, what is all the rambling about yellow hats and rose-colored glasses? perhaps it's just about a simple wish to keep our heads above water, when our problems seem to be bigger than us. when the inevitable comes, we can all just grab our yellow hats and don a pair of the rose-colored specs, to see that things are not as bad as waht they seem. it would be wonderful to imbibe an attitude of looking at things in a more positive way and keeping the faith that things are going to get better.

something we all need...

image source

I lift up my eyes to the hills- Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip -
He who watches over you will not slumber;
Indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD watches over you
The LORD is your shade at your right hand;
The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm -
He will watch over your life;
The LORD will watch over your coming and going
Both now and forevermore.
Psalm 121

my ate has found a new love :)

i have some goodnight news. ate is finally enjoying her action sampler. she got this as a birthday present and it's only now (almost 9 months later) that she got around to having the rolls of film developed and actually see her "creations" with her new found love. i've been telling her she needs to make time for stuff like this. para mag, you know, unwind (read:un-wind as in hangin na wind hehe remember that line from tropang trumpo? hehe)

the above photo is a sample of her practice shooting with her action sampler. i like the photo even more because it is full of happy energy and a picture of a happy memory (taken during my vacation last july). i miss this little girl, jeri, especially when she YMs me with: ate gudgurlpoako :p that's how she types her messages over YM. sana nga good girl na sya lagi :p

buy more rolls of film ate :) just click away ;) >>>>>hugs<<<<<<

wan an (good night)

no way but UP

I just saw the Disney animation, UP, yesterday I'm and glad we watched it instead of "the proposal". it must have been predestined that i watch the movie before i end up going through the periodic personal state of calamity (the blues wanes every weekend--that sounded like bruce wayne ;p)

for those who haven't seen it, it's about lolo Carl, a 78-year old widower who one day decides to tie a monstrous number of balloons to his house and fly to Paradise Falls (to fulfill his promise to lola Ellie that they were to build their house over Paradise Falls) as he escapes the hands of the people who wanted him to leave their (his and ellie's) house and stay in the shelter for the elderly. he was unaware that russell, an 8-year old wilderness scout (who so wanted to be senior wilderness master), came along.

it's a disney animation, so suspension of disbelief was used a lot. regardless of the non-realistic things i saw, i came to enjoy the movie and be UPlifted and i was not disappointed. although i cried even as the movie was just starting, (lolo carl's eyes were simply too expressive for the crybaby me to ignore, i felt his guilt for not keeping his promise to lola ellie while she was still alive) i went home feeling waaay better.

what lolo carl and lola ellie shared is something i do not yearn to personally experience, but i was touched by the self-lessness and the simplicity of the adventure they shared, no matter how ordinary it seemed especially for lolo carl, but for lola ellie, it was one adventure she enjoyed (their marriage) even without reaching paradise falls.

my favorite part of the movie is that sequence where lolo carl decides to let go of all the stuff in the house so the ballons, already depleted because of the many sidetrips (and misadventures with the embattled explorer and his minions of talking canines), could manage to lift the house UP so he can rescue his young friend Russell. imagine unloading yourself. it really feels good. (hehe, my toilet humor gets the better of me and i suddenly think of other things, yak! hehe)

seriously, no matter how cliche the theme of the movie is, sometimes, we need to be constantly reminded of the simple things that can allow us to live light--learning to let go and getting rid of the unnecessary loads we put upon ourselves. of course the operative word is UNNECESSARY. we're not saying that you rid yourself of any concerns and become completely indifferent but we can always learn a thing or two from living light. detachment is one of the many things we should have with just the right mix. the non-practice of detachment (let's say too much attachment), weighs you down while too much detachment might put your emotions in coma and you end up lonely and constantly wanting, for having detached yourselves too much.

another beautiful thing i love about the film is how it makes the characters alive and almost human, even if they are just animated images, they were able to strike a chord with the viewers, well at least for the iyakin viewers. hehe. if i were to rate this film with boxes of tissues, i'd give it a three for making me cry at the start and at some point towards the end.

so if you're feeling a bit weighed down by a lot of things, just think about this, once you've hit rock bottom, there is no other way but UP, unless you decide to dig deeper down the earth layers and bury yourself in your self-made pits.

09.09.09 - ten days na lang anniversary ko na rito....nyahahaha!

magic? nah! -- it's saladmaster :p

imagine cooking sinigang without water, and "baking" your favorite betty crocker mix on the stove top without milk nor water.

is that magic? not really.

last saturday, we were invited over a pinoy household to see a cooking demo using saladmaster cookware. a friend's friend asked us to just come over for the free lunch with no obligation to buy any of the products afterwards. free lunch? who says no to free lunch? not us, hehe.

we were first introduced to the products and why we were sitting at the dining area (except for the free lunch) in the first place. the presenter was ms joanne (del rosario), one of only two dealers of Saladmaster products in Singapore, and yes, she is Filipino. (pagdating rito sa sg, nagiging clannish ako, hehe).

joanne

she told us that more than selling the product, she wanted us to learn about how saladmaster can help consumers eat healthy. that was quite believable because we went there just to eat, hehe, and we also learned a lot, some of the things she shared, we already knew but we chose "not to know" because what we do not know won't hurt us, hehe.


i'll just walk you through what was prepared that afternoon, and you could be amazed yourselves :)

joanne was assisted by her husband engr del roasario (the first name slips me as i write this, sorry) and they started with the dessert.

betty crocker's chocolate cake.

1) she poured the cake mix on a mixing bowl
2) then cracked open an egg
3) using the saladmaster saladmachine, she added in shredded zucchini, cabbage and carrots! very fine shreds of vegetables. (we started looking at each other with puzzled looks, we were worried about the vegetables spoiling the taste of the chocolate cake for us :p)
4) as expected, the mixture was dry. but not for long, with constant mixing (chefs call it, fold-in hehe) the magic started and the cake was getting moist every stroke, as though we put water and milk.
5) she pre-heated one of the cooking pots over the stove top (not the oven) before lining the bottom with sliced apples.
6) after pouring the mixture over the apple slices, the no-oven baking started.

that's the cake mixture, lined with thinly sliced apples :)

see how it has gotten really moist?

some 25 minutes later, simultaneously cooking the sinigang and fried chicken. the cake was ready for us to devour.

parang torched creme brulee, pero hindi hehe...

and devoured the cake we did :) naglaho ang mga gulay, even the taste, 100 percent keyk :p

while the cake was baked on the stove top, we saw another magic :) magic sinigang. preparing sinigang the saladmaster way, toss all the ingredients in the pot, just like that, parang salad, hehe. no need for water, if you're using sinigang mix, ibudbod lang rin :) the magic is in the vegetables, niluto sila, hindi sa sarili nilangmantika, kundi sa kanilang sariling tubig. magic nga!

the tomatoes, onions and sili panigang went first

followed by the pork and the other vegetables (labanos/radish, sitao/string beans, pechay)

the sinigang was just left to cook covered, not once, after putting all the ingredients in the pot did they uncover the pot. that way, the presenter said, all the nutrients and flavor are kept inside. see the finished product below, the vegetables were more tasty and flavorful indeed! and the pork was cooked to perfection, malambot at masarap :) hehe syempre pa, pork eh.

if you want more soup, you can boil more broth separately then add to the vegetables :)

sarap ng sinigang!

as we waited for the sinigang, they prepared the fried chicken--cooked using the electric skillet without using oil :)

this electric skillet can also be used to grill :) its special feature, beneath the skillet is a lining of industrial oil that helps even out your cooking

pwede kahit punuin, and you can fry all the chicken in one go (15 minutes on one side and another 15 minutes on the other side, you have to flip the meat yourself, otherwise, magic na talaga un, hehe)

and after 30 minutes, ready na ang fried chicken, crisp and well-cooked hanggang loob :)

may bonus pang oil! that's how much animal fat we got :)
sarap!

the saladmaster has been in business for decades, you can only buy their products through authorized dealers. in sg, one of the two authorized dealers in healthy cooking solutions pte ltd, at 757 geylang road lorong 39, singapore (HP: +65-81983244). they have a different company handling the distribution in the Philippines. joanne went on saying that kris aquino purchased her saladmaster ultimate cooking set in 2007 for a whopping 1 million pi-eytch-pi, hehe! she jokes, ka-level niya si kris since she has the complete set, the same set she uses at home and for work, when she does her demonstrations.

they have the host a dinner/lunch rewards-scheme that gets most moms and cooking enthusiasts in a hosting frenzy. they have gifts for people who open their doors and let the saladmaster cook for them. and i quote from their website --

"Hosting a dinner is easy-and so much fun! Plus, you get rewarded just for opening your home and allowing us to cook for you. We'll cook an entire dinner for you and your friends with absolutely no obligation! We bring the food, do all the cleaning AND reward the hostess with a very special gift from Saladmaster. All you need to do is invite the friends and supply the beverages. It will be a night to remember!"

i think that's how it works even in the philippines. for those interested, i have included links to the website in this entry.

as for me, sarap lang ng free lunch. hehe :)

ang wisdom ni simba

i am not the person who is comfortable with being the center of attention. i took a personality profile test, and it showed (revealing so much more, some of which i am not really happy about hehe)! but here i am posting a picture of me. myself. oo, ako yan! we were experementing on making the eyes smile--whether the eyes can smile and give the impression of a smile even without seeing the actual smile.

ate ana likes this picture, she tells me it's nice. jeri, my 6-year old cousin, jumped in surprise when she first saw it as my profile picture in ym (yes we chat a lot, she uses her mom's YM account). they said it was very real, as though i was about to move out from the screen in one swift move. even miss lebron, who took the picture said, nakakatakot kasi parang totoo, hehe. tita told me, she saw jeri putting her nose on my picture's nose, as if i was there. and i couldn't help but smile. we were nose to nose ;-)

it isn't too obvious that i miss my family a lot eh? i am past the stage where i cried almost every night. besides, hindi naman ganoon kalayo at mayroon namang chat, text at tawag, at kagagaling lang nila mama rito, pero kahit na, iba pa rin kasi.

bakit ako nag eemote? hehe... wala kasi akong magawa. i have nothing to do but find something worthwhile to do. i am actually working on an article (work-related), but i've been getting a serious writer's block on the topic i'm at. pero bakit nga ba? 11 months na kasi ko rito come august 19 and i'd like to think that it is in itself an achievement, i mean, working(?) and living away from home for almost a year is in itself an achievement for someone like me.

i have earlier treated myself to a vanilla-filled lime ice drop (weird, pero masarap, it's one of the few good things that happened this week, a new find for dessert, hehe) to cheer myself up and continue to keep myself on track, despite the intermittent bad weathers i've been experiencing. i have come to realize for the nth time, that all things are passing, nothing is permanent. so if you find youself down in the doldrums, lilipas rin iyan. when you are self-absorbed and enjoying the power and wealth that is not yours to begin with, may katapusan rin iyan. karma is another layer of the same cake, and as far as karma is concerned, it is best to do good and leave the rest to its natural course.

Ika nga sa kwento ni Simba,

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
There's more to be seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done
 
Some say eat or be eaten
Some say live and let live
But all are agreed as they join the stampede
You should never take more than you give

In the Circle of Life

It's the wheel of fortune
It's the leap of faith
It's the band of hope
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle, the Circle of Life

Roaarrr.

i like

i am not so much into facebook for many reasons (something to write about when i get in the zone hehe), but i know fezbuk, pisbuk erm facebook has this "i like" feature which i am trying to copy as i write this post. anyway, "i like" is a good way of channeling positive energy is it not?

from time to time, if not as often as we can, it's good to focus on the things worth our "liking". it lets us feel that hey, life is not all about sad stories and disappointments, there is so much to "like" in life. (there, i'm using "like" as though it is a trademark, hehe)

today, i have songs from laura izibor for my "i like" entry.


i will try to post an mp3 of her song shine for those who also "like" it, :) have a great week everyone. hope your days will be filled with the things you like.

my precioussss...

papa, ate, mama, mean, celebrating mama's 50th birthday last July 6, 2009 at the highlands steakhouse in SM Mall of Asia (SM shoemart, hehe)

while waiting for our food (that's goose liver for appetizer), mistulang si papa ang may birthday :) please check ate's post for details of what we had, basta pork, beef at beef hehe :-D

tapos na ang happy birthday ni mama, pero tuloy pa rin ang ligaya :)

how ya doin?

i haven't had another FRIENDS marathon with ate, nope i haven't. yet i hear joey tribbiani's "how ya doin'?" quip like i watched it just now. all of joey's naughty spin aside, i'm thinking, how are you doing? and i ask myself, how am i doing?

i was reading through my older blogposts last night, those i wrote from 2005, and i couldn't help but feel how much i miss my old self. not so long ago, i was inspired, full of passion. i may be verbose and have not mastered the economy of words back then (even until now), but i can feel how i felt during those times i wrote those entries just by reading them again. and i knew i felt happy each time i published an entry online, regardless whether or not many people liked what i wrote or whether they were generous with their own thoughts about what i wrote or were simply unaffected by the little soul rambling on her blog. soul. yes, soul.

writing is one major indicator of how i am doing. i write when i am happy, grateful, hopeful, excited, scared, frustrated, annoyed, angered and disappointed. i think one has to go through things and experience life and from there the "material" for writing, even as it appears as senseless ramblings takes it shape. when i stop writing, and i seem to be quiet, i know that something isn't going right. that's how i've been for the past few weeks. i seem to lack interest in the usual things i loved doing, i stopped writing.

but then, you see, i am trying to write again, in fact, i am writing ain't I? did i tell you i also write, when i decide to move on? i also write when i need to remind myself that there is more to life than the things i worry about. I have always acknowledged being an anxiety freak. this entry is an embodiment of my own struggle to put myself together and keep my feet on the ground, ready for the uncertainty that lies ahead.

i write again for the same reasons i have written in the past--to declare an unending gratefulness for the simple fact that i am still standiing, that i remain whole despite the emotional crises i've battled against for the past five years of my life. i do not know for how long i can hold it, the only thing i know is that on top of a makeshift buttress that comprise faith, prayer and renewed optimism, i can only manage with the help and support of a few trusted friends and my dearest family.



cheer me on. i can do this even if i'll break all the limbs i have.

pensieve

if you are a harry potter fan, you know what it is. it's this stone-basin where one can place his/her siphoned-out memories and view them from a third-person perspective. i just remembered the pensieve (i have a copy of all 5 harry potter movies and I just finished watching chamber of secrets again) and writing my thoughts (and perhaps photography) is the closest i have to the real thing.

i'd like to pick up a line from ate's blog where she spoke of "knowing your center". she says there has to be something that should keep you grounded--in our case, that would be mostly family and friends.

i think i need an internal GPS to keep close to that center. (well, a real GPS too because i really suck at directions, even in a place as small and as mass-commuter friendly as where i am now). i don't know if i simply have the longest phase of quarter-life crisis (having struggled with these things for the past 3 years now, i think). setting all emotions aside, i guess, i am still good, considering that i can still write, i am still here and I am simply getting by. i have the most loving (extended) family and the most precious friends around. but then at the end of every day, i can't seem to get a hold of where I am really headed for.

it's true what they say, that when you pray for patience, God doesn't make you patient by a simple swish and swoosh of magic. he makes you patient if that's what you ask for. he gives it to you, you just have to receive it and embrace the opportunity to be patient. you just have to understand that some things take time. i'd say that whatever it is i am going through has truly been a test of faith. when i was younger, i got everything that i prayed for, and it drew me closer to God (malakas daw ako kay God sabi nila). and as i grew older there have been several episodes when He chose not to give it to me, or just postponed it for some time. keeping the faith during these times when i felt like i was not being listened to has been most difficult but every time i manage to come out of these episodes, the feeling has always been of triumph, albeit a small triumph. and if it even means anything, i still believe that God has great plans for each one of us, and that includes me. He knows everything we want even before we ask for it. he knows just what we need and (only) if we truly know what we want, it wouldn't be difficult for him to give it to us.

i continue to ask him for patience and discernment. i will keep trusting that everything will be okay. for now, i can be satisfied with any little speck of light that'll keep me going for another week or two, until the time comes when the tiny bursts of light may be sustained long enough to hold fire and just keep it burning.

(shirt from threadless)

i had a dream

i had a dream. i was about to hum a song by Abba as i typed away, until i realized, their song was "I have a dream" not "had" :-p i have been dreaming a lot the past few weeks (or may be i just remember a lot of them the past few weeks). i just read from wikipedia that an average person spends an accumulated six years of his/her life dreaming! dreams, they say, happen when we are in the REM phase of sleep, meaning that part which is still pretty close to wakefulness (mababaw na tulog). as i am no sleep or dreams expert, that is just the way i understand it. maybe lately, i have had a lot of mababaw na tulog.

last night, after a few sips of virgin mary, which i totally disliked (sidestory: i went to the SG-UP alumni association thing with my cousin who is here and two of my dearest friends, and as i don't really drink, i tried to be adventurous and picked out something i haven't tried [and that is most on what's on the list of drinks, hehe] and picked one under "mocktails". for those who do not know what virgin mary is made of (like me, until i had my first sip, hehe) i can only say, it tasted like burger puree, burger juice it is!

the only taste i liked was the tabasco and Worcestershire sauce in it. as it is a non-alcoholic drink, it is essentially tomato juice with all the other spices in a bloody mary drink [BM has a spike of vodka, of course you know that] still i had to google what they mix in with the tomato juice, maybe you'd think of a tomato-based ulam when you read it: hehe, here it goes: tomato juice, and usually other spices or flavorings such as Worcestershire sauce, Tabasco sauce, beef consomme or bouillon, horseradish, celery, olive, salt, black pepper, cayenne pepper, lemon juice, and celery salt.)

sabi nga nila, sana ay nagdala ako ng kanin at baka natuwa pa ako hehe. anyway, ok na yun, i actually wished i bought nachos to go with that crazy mix of a drink

now that is too much of a sidestory eh? hehehe

the main story is really short:

i saw a small shiny neon green frog in my dream last night, so i had to look up what it meant. i was hoping it actually signifies something good, but then, we can always choose what we believe in, hehe, and i prefer to stick with mr brightside

so here's a couple of interpretations which i got from the web:

"Frog

Old dream interpretation books say that frogs are a good omens and represent happiness and great friendships. From a more modern point of view, frogs may be considered symbols of the unconscious because they live in the water. Frogs also represent transformation of the positive kind." source

"Frog

To see a frog in your dream, represents a potential for change or something unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise and thus, signify transformation. Alternatively, the frog symbolizes uncleanness, fertility, or rebirth.

To see frogs leaping in your dream, indicate your lack of commitment. You have a tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal. It parallels your progress." source

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in closing, here me sing Abba :-p i hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!

I have a dream - Abba

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

isn't he adorable?

caught these videos on yahoo and youtube. 2 year old tot Keith Jr with Efren Bata's form hehe... i just find it amazing for a little kid to have such control (and he knows which balls to target in sequence ako, 1 and 2 lang yata hehe) :-) ... he's called the pool shark in diapers/littlesniper... pero iba pa rin si Efren and Django ah :-p

the show

i enjoyed the music the first time i heard it because of its catchy tune and nice lyrics. i looked for the video and it reminded me of sesame street for some strange reason :)

i hope you'd enjoy this as much as i did. (ate where did i GOT this? LOL!)

The Show (Lenka)
***
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why Slow it down, make it stop Or else my heart is going to pop 'Cause its to much, yeah its a lot To be something I'm not I'm a fool, out of love 'Cause I just can't get enough I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go just enjoy the show And The sun is hot in the sky Just like a giant spot light The people follow the signs And synchronize in time It's a joke, nobody knows they've got a ticket to the show. Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go And just enjoy the show Just enjoy the show I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go And just enjoy the show Just enjoy the show dum de dum, da dum de dum and just enjoy the show da dum de dum, da dum de dum and just enjoy the show I want my money back (3x) Just enjoy the showI want my money back(x3) Just enjoy the show
***

The Show

did you learn something new today?

i am tuned-in on e-radio portal and it's back to "old" music on a wednesday... one song goes "'cause you bring out the best in meeee, like no one else can doooo, that's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love youuuuuuuu..." (can you name the group who made this popular?), i take off the earphones when sharon cuneta's pa-cute McDo radio ad plays. *grins*

that is just to set the mood for this entry. when you hear old tunes, you are brought back to those days--those days when life was a whole lotta simpler. then you are reminded how fleeting the past years have been. i used to not like wednesdays on radio because they play "oldies", now, i look forward to it, because i now know the oldies. :-) i am among the oldies, hehe.

it is always good reliving memories, even those which are not so good (in a way, it gives you a sense of finality, some form of closure, that indeed, a certain memory is part of the past). but dwelling too much on the past is not really cool. we have to keep moving forward.

as we keep moving forward, we try to take in as much as we can, everything that we need to sustain us in our long journey. and to make our journey interesting, it would be nice to try to learn something new each day. maybe it doesn't need to be something big, or something limited to gaining knowledge or information. it could be learning to be happy with small blessings; learning to let go of petty arguments; learning to accept life's harsh realities; learning a new song; learning to smile with your eyes; learning to forgive and forget (too cliche, but it's something we all need to re-learn); learning to have fun; learning to be grateful...

maybe some of these do not exactly qualify as something "new", but then the novelty comes with the person who experiences it and chooses to learn it probably for the first time in a long while.

i may have had a tough couple of weeks. but today, i choose to learn to accept that there are things which I have no control over, and focus on those which i can still do something about. i learned that i waste a lot of energy in useless worries and anxieties, a lot of times. today, i hope to start learning to experience life as it is given to me, always making the most of what is here and trusting that everything will be okay in the end.

on a lighter note, i learned something new a couple of weeks back:

through my cousin jec, i discovered mangatar. and that is me manga-rized (is there even such a word?!). a few minutes after i made that, i realized the only thing that made tha mangatar a manga version of me is the pair of red specs. hehe.

here's a quick list of new things learned today, i learned that:

1. i can try not to cry when i am angry
2. everyone has a secret to keep (everyone, meaning it includes you and me)
   
3. rafael nadal is wearing pink at the 2009 French Open (well i learned that yesterday)
   
4. i am not the only person who hates being lied to (that's not really new is it?)
5. it is always easier with acceptance (then you can move forward)
   

a variation to our entry's title would be something our parents asked us everytime we got home from preschool: anak, what did you learn today? tell us, let's keep the ball rollin'.

because we can all use a good laugh on a monday

a friend forwarded a link to chuvaness.com, and i got this. seriously, i tried to decipher the last sentence of her letter, she sounded like she really needed help from Dr. Ruth

taking chances

i cannot call myself a free spirit nor a risk-taker. for all of the 25 summers of my insignificance, i have pretty much taken the path more certain. i cannot say it didn't do me any good, having made decisions which are far less life-changing than other people my age would have taken. you can call me a bore, but i know i find comfort in the thought of not disturbing the status quo or at least making sure that things are okay before immersing myself into something big. but then, we can never be sure of everything, perhaps anything for that matter. we can never be certain. there is nothing certain in this world but death and taxes, to borrow the words of mr franklin.

so what is this rambling all about?

let us just say that for the first time in my adult life, i am faced with a huge uncertainty, and as much as i would like to keep the optimism flowing, i really do not know where the road would take me, and it makes me scared. i know, this is all part of growing up, which is why a big part of me never really wanted to grow-up. then again, i have to deal with it.

i am a few minutes away from the path of taking chances. against all uncertainties, i remain hopeful, it will lead me to a better place. wish me luck...

running out of gas

hmmm... i am not a certified couch potato, i can tell you that i'd manage without a television (basta may internet :-) hehe)... but since my roommate has a nice lcd tv, why pass up the chance to watch the programs on the local channels (well, at least the shows we follow, and yes, we do not have cable tv, hehe, sa masalimuot na kadahilanan).

here is our weekly tv guide:

Mondays - ch 5 - the amazing race (last ep, last week)
Tuesdays - movie night - although they have their local drama, Fighting Spiders (also on ch5) which we sometimes watch (it's not easy really, although they have it in English, our ears are not really used to the local accent, i know somebody who watched a full episode and ended up with a bad headache, hehe)


Wednesdays - ch 5, american idol (we are on the final week!) performance night
Thursdays - ch 5 american idol results show
Fridays- ch 5 survivor tocantins (down to the last 5 survivors)




it is quite obvious that we are running out of programs to watch. i don't know if it's a good thing to have followed through the complete seasons of amazing race, american idol and survivor in the same year. [sa atin, bihira ako makakumpleto kasi madalas, late na ako para makapanood ng mga palabas. hehe. pambihira, ang milestone ko ay ang mga napanood kong palabas sa tv! hehe. anubaito?]

anyway, it looks like our boobtube junkie-ness will soon be running out of gas. maybe i can finally sitdown and read a borrowed copy of umberto eco's the name of the rose soon :-) unless i get hooked with singapore idol in june hehehe...