i had a dream

i had a dream. i was about to hum a song by Abba as i typed away, until i realized, their song was "I have a dream" not "had" :-p i have been dreaming a lot the past few weeks (or may be i just remember a lot of them the past few weeks). i just read from wikipedia that an average person spends an accumulated six years of his/her life dreaming! dreams, they say, happen when we are in the REM phase of sleep, meaning that part which is still pretty close to wakefulness (mababaw na tulog). as i am no sleep or dreams expert, that is just the way i understand it. maybe lately, i have had a lot of mababaw na tulog.

last night, after a few sips of virgin mary, which i totally disliked (sidestory: i went to the SG-UP alumni association thing with my cousin who is here and two of my dearest friends, and as i don't really drink, i tried to be adventurous and picked out something i haven't tried [and that is most on what's on the list of drinks, hehe] and picked one under "mocktails". for those who do not know what virgin mary is made of (like me, until i had my first sip, hehe) i can only say, it tasted like burger puree, burger juice it is!

the only taste i liked was the tabasco and Worcestershire sauce in it. as it is a non-alcoholic drink, it is essentially tomato juice with all the other spices in a bloody mary drink [BM has a spike of vodka, of course you know that] still i had to google what they mix in with the tomato juice, maybe you'd think of a tomato-based ulam when you read it: hehe, here it goes: tomato juice, and usually other spices or flavorings such as Worcestershire sauce, Tabasco sauce, beef consomme or bouillon, horseradish, celery, olive, salt, black pepper, cayenne pepper, lemon juice, and celery salt.)

sabi nga nila, sana ay nagdala ako ng kanin at baka natuwa pa ako hehe. anyway, ok na yun, i actually wished i bought nachos to go with that crazy mix of a drink

now that is too much of a sidestory eh? hehehe

the main story is really short:

i saw a small shiny neon green frog in my dream last night, so i had to look up what it meant. i was hoping it actually signifies something good, but then, we can always choose what we believe in, hehe, and i prefer to stick with mr brightside

so here's a couple of interpretations which i got from the web:

"Frog

Old dream interpretation books say that frogs are a good omens and represent happiness and great friendships. From a more modern point of view, frogs may be considered symbols of the unconscious because they live in the water. Frogs also represent transformation of the positive kind." source

"Frog

To see a frog in your dream, represents a potential for change or something unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise and thus, signify transformation. Alternatively, the frog symbolizes uncleanness, fertility, or rebirth.

To see frogs leaping in your dream, indicate your lack of commitment. You have a tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal. It parallels your progress." source

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in closing, here me sing Abba :-p i hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!

I have a dream - Abba

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

isn't he adorable?

caught these videos on yahoo and youtube. 2 year old tot Keith Jr with Efren Bata's form hehe... i just find it amazing for a little kid to have such control (and he knows which balls to target in sequence ako, 1 and 2 lang yata hehe) :-) ... he's called the pool shark in diapers/littlesniper... pero iba pa rin si Efren and Django ah :-p

the show

i enjoyed the music the first time i heard it because of its catchy tune and nice lyrics. i looked for the video and it reminded me of sesame street for some strange reason :)

i hope you'd enjoy this as much as i did. (ate where did i GOT this? LOL!)

The Show (Lenka)
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I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why Slow it down, make it stop Or else my heart is going to pop 'Cause its to much, yeah its a lot To be something I'm not I'm a fool, out of love 'Cause I just can't get enough I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go just enjoy the show And The sun is hot in the sky Just like a giant spot light The people follow the signs And synchronize in time It's a joke, nobody knows they've got a ticket to the show. Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go And just enjoy the show Just enjoy the show I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze, and love is a riddle I don't know where to go Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go And just enjoy the show Just enjoy the show dum de dum, da dum de dum and just enjoy the show da dum de dum, da dum de dum and just enjoy the show I want my money back (3x) Just enjoy the showI want my money back(x3) Just enjoy the show
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The Show

did you learn something new today?

i am tuned-in on e-radio portal and it's back to "old" music on a wednesday... one song goes "'cause you bring out the best in meeee, like no one else can doooo, that's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love youuuuuuuu..." (can you name the group who made this popular?), i take off the earphones when sharon cuneta's pa-cute McDo radio ad plays. *grins*

that is just to set the mood for this entry. when you hear old tunes, you are brought back to those days--those days when life was a whole lotta simpler. then you are reminded how fleeting the past years have been. i used to not like wednesdays on radio because they play "oldies", now, i look forward to it, because i now know the oldies. :-) i am among the oldies, hehe.

it is always good reliving memories, even those which are not so good (in a way, it gives you a sense of finality, some form of closure, that indeed, a certain memory is part of the past). but dwelling too much on the past is not really cool. we have to keep moving forward.

as we keep moving forward, we try to take in as much as we can, everything that we need to sustain us in our long journey. and to make our journey interesting, it would be nice to try to learn something new each day. maybe it doesn't need to be something big, or something limited to gaining knowledge or information. it could be learning to be happy with small blessings; learning to let go of petty arguments; learning to accept life's harsh realities; learning a new song; learning to smile with your eyes; learning to forgive and forget (too cliche, but it's something we all need to re-learn); learning to have fun; learning to be grateful...

maybe some of these do not exactly qualify as something "new", but then the novelty comes with the person who experiences it and chooses to learn it probably for the first time in a long while.

i may have had a tough couple of weeks. but today, i choose to learn to accept that there are things which I have no control over, and focus on those which i can still do something about. i learned that i waste a lot of energy in useless worries and anxieties, a lot of times. today, i hope to start learning to experience life as it is given to me, always making the most of what is here and trusting that everything will be okay in the end.

on a lighter note, i learned something new a couple of weeks back:

through my cousin jec, i discovered mangatar. and that is me manga-rized (is there even such a word?!). a few minutes after i made that, i realized the only thing that made tha mangatar a manga version of me is the pair of red specs. hehe.

here's a quick list of new things learned today, i learned that:

1. i can try not to cry when i am angry
2. everyone has a secret to keep (everyone, meaning it includes you and me)
   
3. rafael nadal is wearing pink at the 2009 French Open (well i learned that yesterday)
   
4. i am not the only person who hates being lied to (that's not really new is it?)
5. it is always easier with acceptance (then you can move forward)
   

a variation to our entry's title would be something our parents asked us everytime we got home from preschool: anak, what did you learn today? tell us, let's keep the ball rollin'.

because we can all use a good laugh on a monday

a friend forwarded a link to chuvaness.com, and i got this. seriously, i tried to decipher the last sentence of her letter, she sounded like she really needed help from Dr. Ruth

taking chances

i cannot call myself a free spirit nor a risk-taker. for all of the 25 summers of my insignificance, i have pretty much taken the path more certain. i cannot say it didn't do me any good, having made decisions which are far less life-changing than other people my age would have taken. you can call me a bore, but i know i find comfort in the thought of not disturbing the status quo or at least making sure that things are okay before immersing myself into something big. but then, we can never be sure of everything, perhaps anything for that matter. we can never be certain. there is nothing certain in this world but death and taxes, to borrow the words of mr franklin.

so what is this rambling all about?

let us just say that for the first time in my adult life, i am faced with a huge uncertainty, and as much as i would like to keep the optimism flowing, i really do not know where the road would take me, and it makes me scared. i know, this is all part of growing up, which is why a big part of me never really wanted to grow-up. then again, i have to deal with it.

i am a few minutes away from the path of taking chances. against all uncertainties, i remain hopeful, it will lead me to a better place. wish me luck...

running out of gas

hmmm... i am not a certified couch potato, i can tell you that i'd manage without a television (basta may internet :-) hehe)... but since my roommate has a nice lcd tv, why pass up the chance to watch the programs on the local channels (well, at least the shows we follow, and yes, we do not have cable tv, hehe, sa masalimuot na kadahilanan).

here is our weekly tv guide:

Mondays - ch 5 - the amazing race (last ep, last week)
Tuesdays - movie night - although they have their local drama, Fighting Spiders (also on ch5) which we sometimes watch (it's not easy really, although they have it in English, our ears are not really used to the local accent, i know somebody who watched a full episode and ended up with a bad headache, hehe)


Wednesdays - ch 5, american idol (we are on the final week!) performance night
Thursdays - ch 5 american idol results show
Fridays- ch 5 survivor tocantins (down to the last 5 survivors)




it is quite obvious that we are running out of programs to watch. i don't know if it's a good thing to have followed through the complete seasons of amazing race, american idol and survivor in the same year. [sa atin, bihira ako makakumpleto kasi madalas, late na ako para makapanood ng mga palabas. hehe. pambihira, ang milestone ko ay ang mga napanood kong palabas sa tv! hehe. anubaito?]

anyway, it looks like our boobtube junkie-ness will soon be running out of gas. maybe i can finally sitdown and read a borrowed copy of umberto eco's the name of the rose soon :-) unless i get hooked with singapore idol in june hehehe...